No Good Comes From Calls After Midnight

Warning: I'm a little on my pity pot and it's a little long and dramatic. I know, you're not surprised.

Here I am sitting at the computer, hoping to find Chris a job. Are you tired of hearing that yet? Because I'm tired of thinking it. Next week will mark the start of a seventh month of unemployment, let me tell you, that's discouraging.

I mean really, are there NO jobs out there? We've had so many loving friend looking for us, and we both spend countless hours looking daily, in and out of state, for something. It's hard to understand why nothing has come through yet.

With that being said, I also recognize the bountiful blessings we have encounter because of this experience. My favorite being we have become a closer husband and wife. I love this man more every day, I'm so thankful he's been around to help with things which has allowed me to help more at the school, run more at decent hours of the day and he has learned I really don't watch as much "Days" as he my have thought. Don't get me wrong, I'm really ready to take back my role as sole house runner/boss. I know it will be hard adjusting to my extremely spoiled life of having him help with kid pick up and going to the store with no kids, but that's the way life is supposed to be. He needs to be working!

I'm feeling extra discouraged today. I'm at a loss at where else to look. I probably should have run today to get these blues out of my system, but I'm too tired. I'm tired because, are you ready for this...? Last night, just as I'm headed off to slumber land, my phone starts ringing around midnight (hence the title).

I go running down the stairs because I know that any call that happens too late or too early in the morning must be an emergency. New baby, stranded friend, sad "someone" that really needs to talk, even death.

I look and my phone says "unknown" which means no number or id of said caller. I pick up and some nasty jerk says horrible things that I don't need to be hearing ever, especially before bed. Really??? I thought those days were over. I thought that was something people did when they were young, way before caller id.

Of course it took me forever to go back to bed, and just as I'm starting to dose a neighbor dog starts barking. Let me tell you, lots of our backyard neighbors have dogs and we have never had a problem. I never hear them, they are so good. The barking goes on for what felt like forever, and my thoughts were not of annoyance, but of how these dogs never bark so what is the problem now?

What if the nasty guy on the phone is sitting outside my house just checking to see if we're home or where we sleep and those wonderful dogs are barking to protect us? Ugh. What a long night.

So here I sit, tired and frustrated. In the grand spectrum of things this is a blink of an eye but at this moment it feels like an eternity. I just want my husband to be happy and working.

To all you lovely friends and family that made it through this horrible post, thank you for all you do and have done. Keep us in your prayers and your ears open to possibilities.