The News Is Out

Today is the end of a very long week. I was released today from the Relief Society. Normally I wouldn't have much to say, but I feel the last 14 months have been especially trying in a personal manner that this release has left me with one more loss of the year. Not that it's a bad loss, just another change in this web of life. I think there is more than one hardest part in this situation. I have served in a few presidencies and it's amazing the bonds that are made. Friends for life so to speak. I love the women I have served with and I am so grateful for the lessons they've taught me and the friendships that we now have. I will miss visiting the sisters. I am not sad for the release, but for the changes that are happening for me. I know I'm being selfish. I know I learned what I was there to learn, hopefully I will take that with me and be who the Lord is preparing me to be. I know I have many friends, please don't be offended when I say this, but walking through church today I felt so alone. I sat by wonderful people and talked to some of you great friends, I just felt alone. I know this will pass. Maybe it's not knowing where I'm going next, I just have such a strong desire to serve. It's funny how your calling can give you an identity and help you to do things you normally wouldn't like talk to a complete stranger or pray for someone you haven't and wouldn't think to before. I know the new presidency will be fabulous. They are very strong, spiritual women I have endless respect for. As for me, I'll just wait prayerfully for "the call".