Miracles

Who doesn't have it hard? I think we all do at some point. We get to that point and think it's the worst it could get, and then later in life you realize you're at a harder point but you've survived before and you'll survive again.

Obviously we're going through some craziness at the Kesten household. We're on month 4 of no work. Season's are changing and so are our kids and their needs. Life is busy. I was sick for a few weeks in February, and I realize I was so spoiled with good health for the last year that my cold really put me under and made me wimpy.

Last Saturday I hurt my back, I think from raking leaves Friday and then running 13 miles on it Saturday morning. I think this is the most pain I've ever been in, other than child birth. It's been hard not to be frustrated and angry. Of course my biggest upset is not being able to run. I'm in the middle of training for a marathon, I can't be hurt! My house is a disaster because I can't bend, my laundry is piling up. Alexa didn't do one day of homework this week, other than reading, because I couldn't help her. Dinners have been a little pathetic. Chris is doing the best he can to help, and has been an amazing supporter and protector. My sides are sore from sitting so much. You get the point.

I made the mistake of trying to run on Wed. morning. I aggravated my back even more and it hurt so bad I was brought to tears. Many times. I don't like sharing things too sacred because they are so special, but I wanted to share this with you and always remember the love of my husband and the love of my Heavenly Father.

I was hurting so bad and couldn't sleep because I was in so much pain Wed. night, I asked Chris for a priesthood blessing In that blessing he prayed for a miracle and asked that I would be able to get the sleep that I needed. After he lifted his hands, my back moved in ways it hadn't or wasn't able to in days. I could still feel the pain, but it was numb. I slept that night until 5am, which was just enough to get "the sleep I needed". When I woke up I was in sever pain, I couldn't even lift my left arm because it would send my back into extreme spasms. We were struggling with what to do about going to the doctors because even though we have insurance, we still have to pay a lot out of pocket and with no job that doesn't really work right now. I was so afraid I would need x-rays or an MRI. I then remembered that a friend recently had an injury (tender mercy) and went to the TOSH medical center for a free evaluation. I called and they got me in just a few short hours later. Can you even believe it?!

Because it was free, I wasn't expecting much. I figured they would at least point me in the right direction as far as what kind of doctor to see.
Dr. Kurt asked me questions and then put me through some painful bending and pushing. All he said was to take more meds. (I wasn't really taking the right dosage because I thought they weren't working) and rest in a comfortable position. WHAT???? No x-rays? No other doctor to see? You mean I was taken care of literally for FREE???

Today, just a day later, I feel better than I have all week. Just yesterday I was in tears. I truly believe in miracles, but more so I believe in the power of the priesthood and I'm so thankful for a loving husband who wants nothing more than to help me be happy and feel good. I'm also thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows me and leads me, who blesses me in ways I don't know. I know we sometimes have to feel the pain before we can recognize the blessings. I'm so thankful to have the gospel in my life, and these knowledge's. I can't imagine life any other way.