I drove my kids to school today. They have been riding their bikes because of the nicer weather and because I think it's good for them.I walked to school everyday, rain or shine. Anyhow, they begged and then acted like I owed it to them. I should have said no at that point, but I wanted to be "the nice mom".
We got to the school and then Caely started to complain that I was not coming to her class this week. I go most every week, shouldn't that be enough? Nope. Not for her. In fact, I have gone for her more this year than EVER for Tyler in a school year. She walked away mad, and what did I do? I felt like the crappiest mom. Why do I do that? I just was "the nice mom" and drove them, and I go to her class all the time. Ugh.
Then (yep there's more) I showered Lexi and Patch. I was thinking to myself how much I feel I have missed with them, just by filling my time with other things or sending them to play with friends. I wondered where the year went and realized that Lexi will be off to kindergarten and I REALLY need to enjoy my time with her and Patch before she goes full day.
Right after those thoughts Patch started in on his attitude and I remembered why I avoid them. It wasn't like that with Tyler and Caely. I miss that. And again I felt crappy.
Motherhood is a whirl wind of emotions.
4 comments:
I'm sorry today hasn't started off great. We really don't get paid enough do we!
Love the cabin pictures! What a fun weekend!
Lady....lady....lady...what am I going to do with you???? Just kidding. I'm dying here, one month!!! Then we can ignore our children together! Miss you tons, glad you got to go to the temple, girls are like that, Patch can come stay with me and YOU'RE THE BEST...don't sweat the small stuff.
first of all - LOVE the comic!
Second. Don't play into the guilt trips that the kids somehow are hard-wired to put us on. You are a great mom, and do more things with/for your kids than almost anyone I know.
Last, the comment about remembering why you avoid them is hilarious.
OK... I totally commented on this post when I read it on Wed but I'm not sure where it went... (this has happened to me 3 different times on 3 different blogs... think I'm imagining things??)
So.. yeah you know we have our "nice mom" days and our "just get through it mom" days and there are the days where "I wish I wasn't the mom!"
You are doing your best and the kids are trying their best... we just have to remember they are just hiccup moments (something I totally forget, maybe on purpose) but in the end we all come out okay!
Enjoy the emotional ride - we can ride together 'cause I'm always on that ride! ;p
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